I am a double major in Painting and Art History. Now that I have graduated, I am trying to make it on my own!
One of the major challenges I faced while in college was my health. Most people would probably think I am really healthy – I get “sick” about 2 -3 times a year for a few days. What people don’t know is that I have felt sick 365 days a year for the past 5 years. If you look at my first post – you will see just a fraction of the symptoms I have been experiencing.
I remember my first year at art school – I would fall asleep in the middle of the day, everyday, in my art history class. I hated it! I wanted to be awake! I tried eating foods I thought would give me more energy – you know a sandwich, some peanut butter, all the things your told as a kid give you energy. I would drink a big cup of coffee, but to no avail. I had 18 hours of class, two work study jobs, and a weekend job. I was certainly under a lot of stress – but stress was only making the underlying problems worse – not causing them. What I was in denial about, was that my body was sick from the inside out.
I went to the doctor – and he told me it was all from depression. I eventually started going to counseling at my school. That was immensely helpful emotionally, but I was still physically not well. All my research lead me to look at candida diets, gluten-free diets, and a book called Beat Sugar Addiction Now! This past fall I read that book in one day. I took every test – and I tested off the charts for every one of the sugar addictions. I have a terrible sugar dependancy. I started to cut back – and I felt better, but still was having yeast infections. I always thought that if I cut a lot of the sugar out – it would help the yeast a lot more than it was. This is because I wasn’t realizing that all that yeast was originating in my intestines – not other areas of my body.
This year I resolved to put myself first. What that means for me above everything else is getting well. The problems I have been having with my body have affected my emotional health a lot. I worry about my health – which leads to anxiety – and anxiety leads to depression. So when my doctors ask me if I am depressed – of course I am! But it’s not my depression that is making me sick – it is my sickness that is making me depressed.
Enough is enough! So I started an elimination diet to figure things out on my own. I feel so much better cutting gluten, dairy, eggs, and soy out of my diet! Unfortunately, feeling better isn’t the same as healing. I am going to use every resource possible to heal my body, and to change my lifestyle.
After feeling so alone for five years, I want to find support and I want to help people like me who felt like they couldn’t find the answer or were unheard! There will be a lot of ups and downs, but I want to be able to remember them all!